Well I'm back. And so desperate for approval that I am almost willing to call people that I am still friendly with to respond to my email. Despite the fact it's 2 AM in Utah and 1 AM in CA.
Actually I am desperate for any response. Good or ill. I just can't take the only email I am getting coming from Facebook and Netflix.
Chandra is still in pain. I wish she would take it easy. She insists on being at work, which is 7 days a week (she's trying to buy her mother's business at $10.00 per hour). Frustrates me she is popping pills and chasing it with vodka. What she needs is bed rest.
Kelly is furious at me. I told her that Dee was hesitant about moving to Florida (which is only natural she has lived near her family in Wisconsin all of her life.) and I offered her a place here instead of moving in with her parents if it came down to it. So I may lose both Kelly and Dee as friends. However getting all 900 Barbies she, Dee, is storing here would be nice.
Christine's date went well. Which sucks. I hope her new beau has HPV. Which is actually mild for me. At one point I wished Schmuck would get anally raped with a shotgun which accidentally went off mid-experience.
Gabrielle didn't respond back to my apology. Which doesn't surprise me. I don't expect to hear anything from her for a long time. I think the Boy is in sixth grade. So maybe graduation we will have kind words for each other. And little to no reason for me to talk to her again after.
I emailed my old roommate LostinVertigo. Telling her how I am doing. She is one of the people that I seriously wronged. We have made up but I thought I would tell her how tonight was going. One of the things I have decided is that I am firing my therapist. I am sick of him trying to indoctrinate me to Eastern Medicine. I want a Western Psychotherapist. We spent 35 minutes talking about an episode of Lost. I'm not gaining anything and I really need therapy. Harsh therapy.
My old therapist Sean used to be able to predict my moods. Tell me why I felt the way I did. Even invited me to his house for a session after he got a foot of his colon removed. Things went very well with him. I have sent him email asking him the best way to fire my current therapist.
Mom will not be thrilled.